Peeling Onions and Emotional Clearing

Discretionary Time

Over the last two months, I worked pretty hard on a big project at work. I finished yesterday at about 11. It gives me a great sense of relief and space. Now, I feel like I have a little more discretionary time. I also feel like there is nothing pressing me. There is nothing that I 'should' be doing. Well, there is. There always is. But the pressure is not the same as the big project.

Sensing Emotional Content in Memories

I have been reviewing some of my memories. In particular, I was going over some memories that I have reviewed in the past one or more times. As I start to review, I can sense an emotional response in my body. I take this as an indicator that I have not fully dealt with the memories or episodes of feelings involved. This process reminds me of clearing emotional baggage, where it's not just about getting rid of the obvious stuff, but also dealing with the underlying layers. This approach can be really powerful for personal growth and liberation, as discussed in Clearing Through Catharsis. As I discussed in Clearing Through Catharsis, this approach can be really powerful for personal growth and liberation.

Revisiting Memories

Two years ago when I was doing this process, there were many times when I couldn't remember anything, even if I tried. There were lots of times when I drew a blank. I felt that there was lots inside me, but when I went to look, 'poof!' It disappeared. I've noticed that this process can take time, but it's worth it. As I explore my memories, I'm reminded of the importance of bringing hidden memories to the surface. Building on ideas from Heal Your Past: The Power of Emotional Memory Work, which shares a similar approach, I've seen firsthand how emotional memory work can help reveal new associations and patterns. But each time I revisit an episode, the island seems to get a little bit bigger. As I revisit episodes, I've noticed that they can start to connect with each other, creating a more cohesive picture. This relates to what I discussed in Emotional Potholes, where uncovering forgotten memories can help reveal new associations and patterns.

Is it a Question of Skill?

I wonder if it is a question of increasing one's skill to access memories. Like so many other endeavors in life, practice makes perfect. Now it seams like just about every other day I encounter a feeling that was tucked away for years and years. Like a new discovery, or like going through old boxes of things from the attic. When you discover them they are immediately recognizable but prior to the discovery, you were oblivious of them.